A very special letter from Daddy...

This is the first time I'm having a conversation with you, my little angel Amaris. To let you know in my heart, you were made out of love. Even though the time was not right, I do believe that when the time is right, God will bless your mother and I with your presence again...in his own way. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I have so much emptiness inside, there are no words that can express how I feel. Amaris, to be honest with you, I love you just as a father should love his son. I want you to know how sorry I am. I would do anything to have you here with us again. Do you know how often I think of you? At least a hundred times a day. I miss you more than I ever thought possible. The day your mother and I found out that you went on to a better place, it was hard...I didn't know how to react. All I kept thinking about was how I had just seen you on the monitor during the ultrasound. It was the first time I got to see you, I'll never forget that. I remember your mother started crying right away when the doctor told us you were gone. I started to think this was all my fault for not being there, but at the same time, I knew I had to hold back my feelings and be strong and supportive for your mother. Son, it's difficult for me sometimes because I wish you were here so we could do father and son things together. One day we will have that chance. I will always keep your memory alive in my heart. I love you son.

A very special letter from your sister, Alicia...

I feel really sad because I really miss you. I just want to make sure that you're okay. I told all my friends at my school that Mommy and Daddy were going to have a baby and that I was going to bring you for all of them to see. But Mommy said that you became an angel to watch over us. Mommy is teaching me about prayer and we always pray for you. I love you baby brother.

A very special letter from Mommy...

My dear Amaris, it has been a long 4 months since you ascended this earth and left us brokenhearted. But if I had the chance to do it all over again...I would. I feel very blessed to have been the chosen one to carry such a precious angel. I just wish you could have been given the opportunity at life, to grow with our family and to have many unforgetable moments together. I know you're here with us...we just can't see you. We can't see your smile or feel the touch of your hand, but I can tell you that I felt your spirit and your love the day you were taken from me. I got your message, I'm happy to know you're up there with Grandpa and playing with all your angel friends. Your daddy and I were talking just after we found out you had passed away. I asked him if he thought you were up there with Grandpa. He said we will know for sure when they send us a sign. As I was recovering in the hospital the day you were taken from me, I suddenly had the craving for bread pudding. I called Nana at home and asked her to make some for when I come home. Later that evening, your Grandma Kailyn came to visit me at the hospital. I told her all about my sudden craving for bread pudding. She laughed a little and told me I reminded her of Grandpa. Grandpa always had to have his bread pudding. I knew then it was your way of validating you were up there with Grandpa. You can't imagine how much that comforted me, to know you were in the arms of an angel. I hope he's teaching you how to use your wings. You're an amazing child, Amaris, you earned them before you were even born. You were just too good for this world. You will forever be in my heart and I love you dearly.

P.S. - Did you get all the kisses I sent to you? I got yours...